I am deleting an old blog but still want to keep the posts so I am moving them here…
Sunday, October 29, 2006
What is attractive?
So my cousin Sue set me up on a blind date. This is the second time she has done this for me. The first girl was great, just not right for me. Somehow Sue knows exactly what I like physically! (See previous blog about staying in a bad relationship)
I won’t get into the details of the date, but I thought it was interesting that I found her very attractive, and not for what I think are the normal reasons.
First, she wore very little makeup, just a little base or whatever you call it. I thought this was great, I don’t like makeup, women always look better without it.
She also had laugh lines around her mouth and crows’ feet around her eyes. I can’t explain it, I think that’s hot! I guess because I associate it with laughing and / or smiling a lot, which is very attractive.
Finally, she did not have large breasts. More accurately she had small anti-gravitational breasts, which are by far my favorite!
I’m sure my friends will not be surprised by this, they know what I like, but I defiantly don’t feel like I’m in the majority with what I find attractive.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Why stay in a bad relationship?
We all know someone who is staying in a relationship when the rest of the world is wondering why.
I’ve been there, more than once, and while replying to a comment earlier tonight I started wondering thinking a little more about it. I’m sure everyone has their individual reasons for staying in their current relationship, but how do you identify the reason(s) and ultimately break the pattern?
In my case I usually end up dating women for which I eventually have little or no respect.
Yep, that sucks; it’s not fair to them. As a result I have spent most of my adult life in bad relationships; that’s a pretty heavy price to pay…I wonder if I can I get a refund? =)
So now I’m 36 and quite interested in getting into another relationship. Of course I have high hopes that the next relationship will be great. I dream of the new woman in my life who will be intelligent, resourceful, independent, motivated, intellectually challenging, athletic, adventurous, successful, calm (not easily angered, rational), does not drink, smoke or do drugs, has no children or the children are 16 or older, very open sexually (not an open relationship, just no hang-ups about sex.) but will not sleep with me until the time is right, black or dark brown hair, blue eyes, and a size 3 or less.
Ok, so I’m not exactly proud of all of those requirements but I am being honest here. I would like to think that I’m above some of the physical requirements which are listed last because they are the least important. But I digress…
Historically I have shown poor judgment in choosing a girlfriend so why would it be different next time? I can make a list of what I want in a woman and choose not to date anyone that doesn’t meet those requirements but that feels to logical and impersonal to me. I really enjoyed the strong attraction and passion at the beginning of my previous relationships. I guess I could hope for both, all of the qualities I want and all of the passion I desire, who knows maybe I can have it all.
Of course my own insecurities raise their ugly head…who’s to say the woman I am looking for is looking for a man like me? It might be pretty difficult to get ours lists to match up.
I’m sure we have all heard about how you’re better off ending the relationship so that you’re available for a better relationship, and that life is too short to spend time and effort on a bad relationship, etc. Yep I’ve heard it all. Talk about stating the blatantly obvious!
(How weird is that I am watching "Coming to America" while writing this. Eddie Murphy playing an African prince going to Queens New York to find a wife.)
I think the key is to identify exactly what need, or underlying psychological problem, is being meet by the bad relationship. For me, I’m not sure yet, I have some ideas but nothing concrete.
In the end I worry that I am just more comfortable with being unhappy than I am with being lonely; and that ultimately I will make the same mistake again.
Comments, thoughts, rants, etc. are always welcome!
Ps: Bush is doing a great job…for a retard! (From Mind of Mencia)
Monday, October 23, 2006
Holy Shopping Spree Batman!
About a week ago I heard that a new version of MS Flight Simulator was coming out so I jumped out to Amazon to order my copy. I’ve never had a flight simulator before so I figured I had better order the yoke, pedals, and throttles to go with it..so one huge checkout later (This was the fist time I’ve had sticker shock on Amazon) and I am anxiously awaiting the delivery of my new toys! =)
Earlier today I was reading about X-Plane which is another simulator but allegedly better than MSFS, and it has more planes..so now I am anxiously awaiting delivery of yet another flight simulator!
Just a few minutes ago I jumped out to GotApex.com, as I do every so often, just to see if they have any deals on the Dell Inspiron E1705 .. and they did .. so now I’m also anxiously awaiting the delivery of my sweet new laptop!
Holy crap, I need to get a consulting gig so pay for all of this crap I just ordered!
Such is the life of a single man in small town America, no wife to stop me from being a dumb ass once in a while..ok, maybe more often than once in a while..but you get my point.
Monday, October 16, 2006
The most noble of callings…
I was talking to my daughter Amanda tonight and she was telling me about how she has volunteered to talk to grade schools students about her drug usage (I may write more about this later).
I must say I was so proud to hear that. I feel that it is very important to serve your community, not matter how small the effort or gesture, its important to give something back, to help others.
I can’t think of anything I would like better than for her to dedicate her life to helping others. I know that’s a big leap from talking about drugs to elementary students, but before tonight I never really thought much about what she might to with her life.
This early desire to volunteer is inspirational.
I told her about my friend Jean Giovetti, founder of Camp Sunfish (www.campsunfish.org, please donate your time or money if you can). I don’t really know how to express how I feel about Jean and what she has accomplished; words fail me at the moment. She inspires me to do more for my community. It’s also very painful for me. Sometimes I think about how things might have been different if there were a Jean Giovetti in my life when I was growing up. She brings me back to my past in a way that makes me very uncomfortable. I can hardly bring myself to type this, it’s very painful, and I’m crying, and I have no idea why.
Monday, October 16, 2006
Love Song
So I woke up in the middle of the night and I cannot sleep! Not sure what is going on tonight, I feel wired!
I’m not sure what I was watching on Saturday but they were playing "Love Song" by the cure. Wow, that brought back some memories. I remember the night that song was cemented in my memory. I was riding in the car with my friend John Henry Peterson, I’m not sure where we were headed at the time, to or from Wisconsin I suspect. We were talking about an Ex girlfriend of his that recently came back into his life. She started calling and wanted to get back together with him. The problem was that he had started dating someone else a bit earlier (I don’t remember how long). He wasn’t sure what to do, who to choose. He eventually chooses the Ex and was very upset about having to hurt his current gf. During this road trip Love Song by The Cure came on the radio, we listened quietly and he said "That’s the way I feel about (the Ex, Jenny I think). I won’t forgive her if this doesn’t work out, but I will always love her."
I had heard the song before but never "really" listed to the lyrics. I can’t say why, but John’s comment really touched me. I got the sense that he thought it wouldn’t work out with her but felt compelled to try and make it work.
Sitting here writing this I begin to remember that there were many things about John that touched me, things that forever changed my life for the better. I haven’t thought about him in years. I think the last time I talked to him was sometime in 1992 - I’m not sure exactly.
Maybe I will write more about that time in my life…please let me know of you would like to hear about it.
Anyway, here are the lyrics from the song….
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I’m alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you
Sunday, October 15, 2006
What makes a Great Dad?
My 15 year old daughter (Amanda) was in town this weekend. I fly her into the Twin Cities for visitation every month during the school year.
My friend Cyn, Amanda, and I were at Arby’s having dinner just before Amanda’s flight, and she is talking a little bit about her Step-Dad. Just to set your mind at ease, I actually like her Step-Dad, he’s a nice guy, not someone I would be friends with but he is a hell of a lot better than my Ex.
First, I will give you a little background on the Step-Dad. He owns the strip bar where he met my Ex after she moved to Milwaukee to become a stripper. He eventually married her and they had two more children together. Before he married my Ex, he fathered two (or maybe three) other children, all with different women. After they were married for a few years, I got a call from the Ex informing me that they were getting a divorce because she caught him cheating with seven other women. Ok, so he’s not the most honest and faithful guy in the world. It turns out that they didn’t actually end up getting a divorce.
Anyway, back to the story. During lunch, Cyn and Amanda are talking about Amanda’s Step-Dad, and Amanda commented on how he is such a great Dad and that he is well known among friends as being a great Dad. She also added that he is a bad husband because of the cheating. It took a lot of will power to stay out of that conversation!
I wonder, is it possible for this guy to be a great Dad? How can the owner of a strip bar be a great Dad? How can a man that cheats on his wife be a great Dad? What other activities does he engage in that demonstrate such poor moral character? I cannot believe that the cheating is an isolated behavior of an otherwise well adjusted and healthy man.
By my definition a good Dad would not willingly and continually father children out of wedlock or cheat on his wife. I don’t think Amanda makes that connection. I didn’t ask what she thinks makes a good Dad, I guess I should.
I don’t think you can be a good Dad if you don’t live with your child(ren) full time, are there every day, and get involved. And you certainly cannot be a good Dad if you demonstrate such weak moral fiber as to cheat on your wife.
I don’t feel that I’m a good Dad either. The Ex and I split up when Amanda was four months old. After they moved to Milwaukee I didn’t see Amanda as often as I should have. Since she was 8 I have been flying her to town once a month and she has been staying with me all summer. Hell, she has silver-elite status at NWA because of visitation flights. Yeah, I know this is the pot calling the kettle black, and I really don’t have room to talk about this, but that doesn’t mean I’m wrong.
So, what do you think makes a great Dad? Do you think cheating on your wife, or what you do for a living have no impact on your ability to be a great Dad?
Please feel free to leave comments letting me know what you think.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Wow, my web site is getting a lot more traffic than I expected!
I just put up my web site on September 17th, 2006 and right away I noticed I was getting a lot more traffic than I ever expected. I just logged into google analytics and check the number of visitors between 9-17 and 10-10 - 1870 visits, 4438 page views!
Not awesome but I think that is great for the first month (ok, almost a month) No sales leads yet but I need to add a lot of content before I can exptect any leads.
So I’m happy about that traffic! Stop by and run the numbers up if you like! (See below for a link)
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Oh crap….
Ok, so I got distracted and didn’t do any work! 45 minutes wasted! Damn it.
Now I’m going to bed, well, I’m going to read for a bit and then go to bed. Well, maybe, unless something more intestesting comes up. =)
BTW, I will be getting together with from friends tomorrow at Action City in EC .. we usually go there on Wednesday night from around 6:00 to 9:00 pm, stop by and say so I know I have a reader! (Yeah, I know I should be working on my business plan rather than racing go carts, playing laser tag, or climbing a wall, but what fun would that be? )
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Working too much!
So how do I find time to start another company when I’m spending so much time at my day job?
I’m trying to find time to work on building (or rather rebuilding) my consulting company. In 1998 I quit consulting to go to work for my current employer, and while I have absolutely no intention of quitting, I would like to start doing more consulting work, and ultimately have about 6 to 10 employees.
I’m excited about consulting again, but I would also like to a little bit of a life! Not sure what to do about it at the moment, I guess I’ll just keep plugging away at it.
The biggest problem I am faced with at the moment is writing a business plan! I hate writing documents, I don..t know why, I just do. I have been procrastinating for more than a week and need to have it done soon for a meeting with some people from the state. So, as usual I will put it off until the last minute by doing silly stuff like posting to my blog =) rather than working on the business plan. Man, I need to get over this!
Now I..m feeling guilty about posting to this blog rather than working so I need to go do some work..Later!
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Rental Property…
I have three vacant rental properties for next month…bummer! I am trying a new strategey for showings. Its more like an open house for properties that are for sale. I tell everyone that I will be there on a certain date and time and anyone can come look at it at that time. No more scheduleing appointments and having no-shows. Not sure how it will work but I am hopeful!
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Monday, May 08, 2006
Some renters suck!
I have this one guy that rents one of my houses, he is really pissing me off! He never pays his rent on time and never shows up when he says he will. Its getting old! I’m kicking him out and he is being such a pain in the ass about it. He doesn’t understand why I’m kicking him out when is current on his rent. Hello, I’m sick of having to chase him down for rent all of the time. Its not worth it. I can’t wait for him to move!
Sunday, May 07, 2006
This is getting to be a habit..
Got up at 5:45 this morning when Harry called. We made plans last night to go flying this morning if the weather was good. The weather was great! Harry let me fly from the left seat today, I feel a lot more comfortable in the left seat! Man, I need to get a good checklist for this airplane, it always seems like I am forgetting some little thing or another. For example, today I forgot to cycle the prop before take off. Its not really a big deal but I dont like forgetting any of the pre-takeoff checks.
Saturday, May 06, 2006
Flying with Harry…
Today I went flying with Harry and my cousin Shawna. Harry is one of the owners of the new airplane, along with my Dad and me. We were short one headset so Shawna didn’t have one - she said she had a lot of fun anyway. I had a great time. I was flying from the right seat, which I have never done before. It was not as strange as I thought it would be. There was a fair amount of wind and it was a little bumpy so I really had to work at flying. I had a little trouble with the take off for some reason…just not pulling off enough…and Harry had to help a lot with the landing. I really like flying with Harry, he makes me be very precise with my maneuvers!
Friday, April 28, 2006
Why yes, I fly!
I am so excited! I just took delivery today of my second airplane! Its a 1964 Piper Cherokee 235 (PA28-235), which is a low wing four passenger airplane with a lot of power. I don’t have my license yet, but I plan on flying a lot and getting my license in a month or two! I took it out today, I have never flown in so much wind, it was pretty hard! Had some trouble with the landings but got a little better by the third landing. As they say, any landing you can walk away from is a good landing.=)
